God's Love

 You once told me that  I am beautiful.
But, dear, when you got closer and looked into my eyes,
You didn't see me.
You just witnessed your own beauty.

To feel  God's love, we need another human being.



10:28 P.M.
guimba,
unlearning attachment and
learning how to  fully love

The book I have been reading,The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari, ***

made me see  the word LIGHTHOUSE  for the forth time.
Okay, okay, seeing my ID  from He Cares Foundation concert was the fifth time.

Lighthouse- it's one of my favorite things.

Why lighthouse?
It's magnificence in size inspires awe in me.
It makes me humble and realize that I am nothing  compared to these grand creations of God ( For me, everything comes from Him.)

It makes me go back.
When one has lost the meaning of one's motion, he has to go back to  his purpose.
I have to go back to my purpose.
Repeatedly.
 For me not to forget.
One of my goals is to help  He Cares Foundation.
Being away from them for almost a year now makes me sometimes forget the reason of my  business conquest.
Those decisive  and detailed goals are all in my dream folder.
Generally speaking, they are:
To empower the parents and  make them independently work.
To inspire the children and make them do actions beyond their situations.
To invigorate the full-time servants.
I need to regularly go back to this  lighthouse picture.


The light coming from the small window up the lighthouse is a remembrance that God is with me.
 if I run,
 if I dance,
if I'm happy,
if I am sad,
if I fall,
God is with me.
He'll light up my way.

He's always the reason, by the way...

***P.S. If by chance, you see this blog and you would like to read The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari, here's the link. https://www.mediafire.com/?14wvsm1k4uskfmu


10:49 A.M. while washing my clothes, updating Skype, eating breakfast and missing  somebody.. 

Why Him?

( This is  the view meters away from McDonald's that is  nearest  from  Fontana, Pampanga. If you would be coming from Fontana without any ride, you will experience greenery and fresh air as you would walk to this place. Talk about SERENITY.The road is wide and so you can sing and dance while you walk and run. Going back to Fontana, if you're tired, you can just hitchhike, a new,  adventurous and kind act. )

While playing in the highway as I was going to Mcdonald's,

the birds flapping their wings lined in front of me and in  chorus, asked a question.

I was floored when they  chirped.

"Why him?"

(You know when you're full of love inside, you 

don't pause and  think.

Words just part  from your lips.

Similar to water abundantly flowing   down from   a faucet)

"He is the one because he loves God more than me. 

He is a great leader.

He is confident, but humble.

He's decisive.

He likes children

and street children.

He is a good communicator.

( We could talk for hours in a busy and noisy fast food  restaurant and  we wouldn't notice the time.)

He speaks the languages I speak.

He  has a powerful soul filled with music.

He likes to travel.

He likes to sing me songs. 

He finger-combs my hair, my weakness.

He also likes Kaizen.

He's not perfect." 

Another follow -up question:

"Do you think God will approve of  him?"

"I believe that 

 one's greatest desires are the will of God for me. "

A farewell words from them:

"You're very near Mcdonald's.

Congratulations."

Missing...

 

While organizing my hard disk,  I saw this folder.
PLW. Prayer and Life Workshop's desert day.

How I miss it. I miss  Ems, my toothbrush buddy.
I miss the pool.( I didn't go anywhere near it.  The pool seemed sad.)
I miss the cemetery inside where priests peacefully sleep.
I miss Brother Cito. ( He loves giving text jokes despite of his Capuchin Franciscan uniform.)
I miss my classmates ( After being together for once a week for 16 weeks, desert day means goodbye.)

Most of all, I miss being with Father God the whole day. I miss roaming around  the wide and green Sacred Heart Novitiate in Fairview where I can eat, drink, sleep, read the bible, and  talk to Him.
I miss  pouring my heart in my journal.
I miss writing thanks to Him.



Dear Father God,

Thank you for the "disconnection"( without notice)
I miss, yes.
But  missing another  makes me   more connected to myself.
Centering.
Contemplative prayer.
Interior silence.
I am more connected to You, my creator.
and when I have sought you first, then and only then, can I love somebody else completely.
Hmmm.. It all boils down to my favorite scripture:
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. 

Your smiling daughter,
jet

11:19 PM
guimba, nueva ecija

Would you be with me Or Would you stand still where you are?

…

( The beginning of my 4Ts. Would you be with me? 

A friend of my friend took lots of pictures. GOd bless him.)

Just  when I have finally decided to make you a major prayer,

There, across  the street, at the apartment of  your  indecisiveness,

Parks a delivery truck with my mail  sealed with a paste of  doubt.

Perhaps a direct answer from you

Would make the driver deliver the mail right into your doorstep. 

Or it will just vanish.

This morning, away from you,

Flashed a flood of clarity about my long term goals.

I call it  "4Ts"

I aim to Teach and Train about my business.

I aim to Travel.

I aim to Tell people about God’s love.

You like to travel, right?
but

Would you be  with me?

Or

Would you stand still where you are?

Soul search, my dear.
 Please answer me this coming April...

Searching and Finding At the Palace In the Sky

 I was searching for myself in you.
Because I thought you've searched for yourself and you have found it.

Boy, was I wrong.

Here's the deal.
Thoroughly study the picture below.
That's the palace in the sky, remember?

With God as our  tour guide,
We will both search.

You search for yourself.
I will search for myself.

No rules.
You can run with your music and fly  in the sea.
I can dance with  my camera and swim in the clouds.

When you've found yourself, then and only then can you find me.
After I have found myself,  I will find you, too.

Memorize every pixel of the picture below.
Place it in your heart.
Make it alive in your vision.

This is the place we will both meet, would that be okay?
For you not to be lost, find me at the exact location of  my camera.

Maybe, a few months after or before the year ends.
Maybe, early next year.
There might be pain  as the days and months stretch.
But it will all be worth it.

P.S In case you want to know, I wanna hold your hands and give you my sweetest hug when that day comes.
Hmmm.. Maybe, a kiss,  too.

Being Free

" When you start to appreciate things,  that's the time you will truly enjoy and be free."

- Jef

From my Nikon's vantage point, how could a human  be larger and taller than those buildings in  Makati?
What is he really looking at?
Why is he not looking at the side of the sun where light abounds?

One thing I'm sure of and that is, he is a person who has an attitude of gratitude.
Maybe, he felt  really free..

"Through You the kingdom comes

Through You the battle's won

Through You I'm not afraid

Through You the price is paid

Through You there's victory

Because of You my heart sings

I am free

Yes, I am free

I am free to run

I am free to dance

I am free to live for You

I am free

Yes, I am free"

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